Today is the second anniversary of our saying goodbye to our precious Memphis. I am filled with such an overwhelming sense of God's grace in my life today. This week God has spoken so strongly through His word to me, first through these verses:
"I remember my affliction and my wandering, the bitterness and the gall. I well remember them, and my soul is downcast with in me. Yet, I call this to mind and therefore have hope: Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness." Lamentations 3:19-23.
This week has flooded back memories of doctors appointments, long faces and sleepless nights. The memories of pain and so much confusion. Right alongside those memories are very sweet ones, the ulstrasound where we saw that sweet baby wave a gentle good bye to us, singing Because He Lives around my hospital bed as we looked at his tiny little face, days and days of family and friends calling and coming over to love on my family. God has allowed me not to forget the pain, and I am grateful. The pain has allowed me to have compassion, but He has also met me with incredible hope. Today He allowed me to glimpse His beautiful sunrise, (or at least the last moments of it). It was radiant and life giving. To follow that precious gift He brought me to these verses of hope and promise:
"See, I will create new heavens and a new earth. The former things will not be remembered, nor will they come to mind. But, be glad and rejoice forever in what I will create, for I will create Jerusalem to be a delight and its people a joy. I will rejoice over Jerusalem and take delight in my people; the sound of weeping and of crying will be heard in it no more. 'Never again will there be in it an infant who lives but a few days, or an old man who does not live out his years';..." Isaiah 65:17-20
My sweet husband, always seems to find the most beautiful way of saying
what is in his heart said this last night, "I may not have been able to
introduce my son to Jesus, but I feel like Jesus will introduce me to my
son." Today I will look back, and I will will remember and choose to call to mind His faithfulness. Today I will look ahead and run toward the promise of hope.
